i can't sleep

i feel weird..

i need to be more selfish. i'm too accomodating.. and it doesn't work.

you can't be too nice.

yet, i want to be myself. be me.

people don't give a damn though. they just do their own things and get on with their lives.

i want to do that too but it is not easy..

i mean seriously, WHO GIVES A DAMN ABOUT YOU?! in the end la, you think you matter ??

no way.

i've gotten it so many times, being taken advantage of. it hurts, it really sucks. it makes you think about things, and wonder if it even makes sense or not ?

all your effort, spending time with those people. what does it result in?? wasted time? wasted effort.. everything gone.. just like that.. it is really sad.

it makes me think that i must be calculative and choose my friends. but i don't want that. then again, you have to protect yourself because no one will. you have to look out for yourself.

you must be independent.


hmmmmm... i don't really know what am i talking about.

maybe i just need someone to stabalise me?

or probably it's the exams coming up....

i can't wait for the killers though!! super excited