bittersweet i could taste in my mouth

i know not many people know i have a blog
and honestly few read it

when i tell people i have a blog, i don't tell them the address..
they don't even read it if i tell them the address..

but some people do read it.. some strangers even.. whom i would never allow them to read my blog if i could..

but i simply am too lazy to do anything about it.. it's just a blog !! why do you need to spend so much time locking posts and changing skins, adding a tagbox ??

and it is weird

somehow i don't want too many people to read my blog, it'll become facebook

to make it more personal.. i can write with much more freedom, knowing that i have more freedom of speech

yet again, i do want some people to read my blog..

i don't want to put password on my entries

i don't want to write because i am so "happening"

i don't want to write to tell people " i am so happy everyday (never sad) "

i want to write the way i meant it, as if you could hear me speak these words right now

i want to be me, not fake
not deceiving

and try my utmost best not to seek attention.. which almost everyone who has a blog, seeks constantly.

i like reading my friend's blog.. because it seems like a blog that comes purely from the heart

if only i could write like that ?



P.S. Jie Jie is coming back ! 4 YEARS, omg damn long la !!!! i can drive you around !!