我每天假装开心, 害怕你离去

一直习惯简单的, 随心的


i think i'm still changing, trying to be the best i can, character wise. finding myself, yet i know that i don't think i can change much. and i must really stop thinking about people i can't work with or i dislike. they should NEVER be on my mind !! not worth it not worth itt. argh fck. why i am so sensitive!

maybe i should be BAD! i wanna be badd lol.

mood swings! crazy sometimes, angsty, happy, emo.

i talk to my parents and franson they all a bit, to like clarify. i think i got the answers i need. i love hanging out with friends and sharing stuff. you really learn more from their experiences while talking. you realise your normal, sometimes things are just unfair, sometimes some people are just fcked up. your in the same boat with many others. everyone has their fair share of problems too. it's not always about ME and US. if people can do it, so can we!

you also appreciate how nice your friends are. and be pleasantly surprised. i really believe they deserve much better. baaa. nevermind. don't think you all would understand.

hahaha met up with darryl, franson, chang, joshua and timmy today !! long time no see. and all of us could meet. the outback food was not good though. nice to catch up. saw lots of people around town. at night i saw my current BUDDY at grand cathay la! how coincidence lol. damn funny, MANAV !

and i watched transformers again lol. with darryl and my dad. why? cause it's damn cool and great ! and i wanted them to watch the show too. no link ah, but i realised die hard 4 and transformers had many similarities. both had like computer hacking and communications disabled, computer nerds who are fat (slacking at home with some granny or mum), US army army weapons and aircraft. ok boring observation.

but it was well worth watching. the script was very well written and the movie was directed almost perfectly! the jokes were damn funny and easy to understand. a bit of action, puppy love, and everything. i really wonder how they make movies. it's really amazing. that's why i love watching movies.

could have clubbedd ?? stupid babi, lol

tired and NEED to sleep !!



我不想忘记你
就算可以
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