happy or sad ?

i am going to ord soon. i should be happy..

i am turning 20 soon.. i should be damn happy.
holidays are coming soon.. i'm DUH happy..

scored 7 goals again during soccer again!!
and won my tennis matches against the nyjc j1's (friendly match)
ate mega big mac and talk talk talk talk with razis and saiful haha..

and i'm thinking of getting a PS3 for my birthday!!!!!!!! (need to tell/ask my parents though)

i went to arsenal fan club pub just now with manav and his friends.. it was so cool la.. cause they reserved the absolute BEST seats in the place.. cause his dad owns the place. shiok la.. but
ARSENAL LOST!!! super disappointing rather than sad. cause they deserved to lose. really sucks

then drink quite a bit of beer... feel very tipsy.. as if its an excuse to go and do something crazy when your "drunk/tipsy" arghhh

then murray lost too .. super zZzZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

then i'll probably get punished and serve some extra duties in dec.. of ALL months.. it has to be in dec.. my favourite month of the year.. holidays, x mas, hari raya haji, b-day, new year eve, mums bday. hate it hate it.. and i deserve it too..
you know really, being selfish could actually be the smartest thing to do.

i still have not bought my running shoes yettttttttttt and i need to jog jog lose weight burn fats burn burn burn burn burn burn

i just want so much more, when i should be more than happy. right ??
probably arsenal blues and hormones